reality.

...i dont want to be alive anymore.
drink or smoke till i die.
all i wanna know is will anyone notice.
i cant cry outloud.
this is my cry.

no ones here to hear it.
i do what i do bc i know on ones watching.

Play myself for the fool.

You know when somethings over when youre trying to convince yourself that it'll change.
You know when somehing is over when you don't have the energy to think about wanting to try again.
You know when somethings over when you start thinking the way I am now.