Goodbye .

is it bad that i hate you even in my dreams ?
last night i read in the bible that i shouldnt wish bad upon my enemies .
i realize thats what i have been doing this whole time .
they say when you get bitten by a poisionous snake you have to suck out all the poison .
well , now i have to suck out all the poision in my life .
starting with you .
i want to start this year off right .
i dont want to feed of my hate for you .
why is forgiving and forgetting so hard to do ?
this will probably be the hardest thing for me to do .
but i know i need to do it .
i always thought that i never needed you in my life , but i always wanted you there . i dont want you anymore . i dont want you in my life anymore .
i wanna be done .
like forreal .
i want this to be my goodbye .
i dont want a reply .
3 words cant change my mind .
i wont let them .
i want to be done .
forget a new years resolution .
this is what im gonna do , not try to do .
this is it .
im done with you .
goodbye .

writters block .

i am a robot .
all my emotions are gone .

i can bee the pain on your face.
its old with you.
i can see it so clear because its the same look on my face.
it hurts me so much because i know..i know that im causing it.
this is my fault.
but i dont know how to fix it.
i dont know how to change it.

i can bee the pain on your face.
its old with you.
i can see it so clear because its the same look on my face.
it hurts me so much because i know..i know that im causing it.
this is my fault.
but i

the closer.

lets not play this game. what is lost is lost. and i never want it to be found again. ive come to an agreement with life. lets move forward; no looking back. you can have it all, bc i dont have room for it anymore. i cant waste time waiting. its done. its done. im done.

i couldnt ask for a more perfect gift.
closer.

okay, some people just need to grow up.
stop making a big deal out of everything.
and if you got something to say, dont beat around the bush.
i mean, no one likes a lametard.

i can see it in my moms eyes.
shes worried.
she sees it.

she knows.

as much as it hurts me, i cand find a way to fix it.
i dont know how.