A long time coming

But I know, change gonna come. Its been another day. Ugh, thats right, another day. I dont know why Im just like eff today. But I am. Ive been annoyed all day. With everyone. I just want to be alone and just go back to not caring. Things were easier that way.

The day after "the day"

I try to keep things original and try not to repeat anything in my life..especially if its something I'd rather not remember. But today is the day after "the day" it happened...again. You know how it sucks when you do something and you're like "okay! Im never gonna do that again. Honestly this was the last time. No more. No matter what." And then you end up doing it again? Yea, story of my life. Everytime I do it, I regret it and think "it was just this one time, I can control myself and it wont happen anymore." But, it does. Its selfish of me. Im a selfish person.

Today is the day after "the day."

Maybe even the last?

Viv.

Come to my rescue..

I honestly havent blogged or written in such a long time. I used to do it all the time, but life kinda got in the way. Words just cant express how many pieces my heart is in right now. I didnt even know it was possible to have so many pieces and still be here. Well, I wouldnt exactly consider myself here. I mean, Im here..I see things happening around me. I can put my hand on something and feel it...but I dont think Im here. Im kinda numb to whats going on around me. a quote that has stuck with me for a few weeks now is "..everyone keeps tellin me the world around me is changing. But what difference does it make if the world around me is changing if my hurt stays the same."

I am helpless, scared, lonely, unclean, tired, nervous, fed up, drained, hurt, briused, and broken.
Im broken.

Im not really one of those people who has a lot to say or everytime I open my mouth something great comes out. Actually, Im kind of the oposite. I dont always have much to say. Sometimes, somethings are best left unsaid.

Idk, Im still looking for that one thing to bring me back to life.