Jump

Wednesday, December 5, 2007 11:11:36 PM jump my hearts about to jump out of my mouth daniel cant breathe banging on the bedroom door, you open it and i see fire and hate in your eyes my mom, on the bed, head dripping with blood. "stop!!! leave my mom alone. dont touch her!!! STOP!" couldnt find its way out of my mouth, hidding in the cornor of my jaw. i dont want you to hate me, i suck up to you. i fight my family... i am my fathers child. im...im just like you. you turn me away, why dont you love me? whats wrong with me? i cry myself to sleep, i cry when im alone, i cry without anyone knowing. ive developed much success in this. ive found comfort in a blade becoming bord i find comfort in fire. punishing myself because of who i am because you dont love me - im falling apart and there's nothing I want to do about it..