The "A" word

It is 7:41pm on a Thursday night. This time yesterday I was totally content and upbeat.
Who am I now?
Since last night I've felt so...not me.
I'm on edge
Choking back tears
I can't hardly take this feeling anymore.
I need someone
I need some help.
Thinking about tomorrow has me worked up and anxious.
Not knowing what it will be
Not having control
Feeling so vulnerable.
I almost can't breathe.
Being able to sit still and appear calm is difficult.
I can feel the fire inside of me
It's burning me.
My mind, revisits my past way to often, trying to convince me to use something sharp.
My heart, screaming, 'don't do it you're past that'
They are constantly fighting.
Why can't it all just stop
I just want silence.
I desperately want peace.
Why can't I have peace.
Rid me of this constant state of anxiousness.
Help me.
Please help me.