SELF

Self
As in myself.
*sigh*
First thing to come to my mind
Followed by other not to nice words and thoughts.
Constantly doubting who self.
Constantly angry self.
Constantly sad self.
Constantly ugly self.
Constantly big mouth self.
Constantly scary self. 
Constantly barely there self.
All these constants are me.
The other side of me and sticks with me
Always wants to be with me.
But I just want to be free
I just want to be free.
If anyone's reading this, I know you're probably confused bc I'm a follower of Christ and yet I speak so lowly of myself.
More times than not i don't feel important
I don't feel smart
I don't feel like I'm here.
I don't feel here.
I'm not worthy.
But I love God.
I love him. 
I should love myself too.
But why is that so hard?
Can anyone please tell me?
Please I need an answer.
A paragraph
A sentence
A word.